Bearing the burden of sleepless night,
trying hard to hide the swelling eyes
behind the dark shade of the liner,
still putting some colours on my lips
& some white dust on my skin
to cover up the shadow of you.
Standing in front of the mirror,
asking many questions
which I have no answer.
Tried of carrying the crook smile
which I hate most to own.
But do I need to cry out of the helplessness.
The pain inside me is just killing my dreams with you.
Yes, I do hate myself for the reason
I could never stay away from you and your dreams.
What I would be
without your dreams and imagination?
I still could not find any answer.
I pray for your dream
& for your love before I close my eyes,
I only wish you to come and sit besides me
to share a dream of 'ours' only.
From the day you came into my dreams & thoughts,
I have forgotten to live alone even for a second,
but you stay miles away from my eyes
and even more farther from my life.
You choose to stay away from my dreams,
then from my life.
But I never blame you,
for the reason I still owe to have
that pure emotions for you.
I could never bridge the gap
which you have created between us,
for the reason I share a dream with you.
I don't know how I felt for you and
I don't want to ask this again to myself
because it pains a lot.
I would start hating myself and
my own feelings if I question again and again.
Still counting the words you have said,
still looking for your way and
dreaming for the hopeless love
which is not even sympathize by you.