Where are you? my red comrade

Morning dew on the grasses

Flashback memory

You suddenly visit my nocturnal dream

Standing in front of my door

The dead of the night

Reminds of your ever smiling face

You try to wipe away

Woes and pains in my life

I wish to live those moments

Where we belonged together

Anticipating another day

you would be calling me

From

across the road,

across rivers and woods

Let’s walk again that path

You chose for us.

I will not deny today

To follow you

count your footsteps

as the time passes

grow old with you

As the life takes a toll over me and you?

where are you?

my red comrade

Yet for another womb!!

Yet for another womb

Another mother

I seek from this life

whom I can ask to embrace us

within one womb

there we can play

Like twin embryos  

Within a sheltered shell

Where their pointing fingers

Shall never peirce us

Yet for another surname

Another clan

I seek from this world

To prove our belonginess

In the line of the same blood

Yet for another worthless battle

Another winnerless war

I seek from this life

Just to fight and die

To test your stand for me.

Yet for another womb

Yet for another mother

I seek from this life.

..........this is a poem I wrote for my brother Nelson Elangbam whom I share no surname, no clan though we still have that bonding  of brother and sister....

The story of modern Thoibi!!

Khamba phangee thengnahouda
Sakhenba Nongban su unahouda
Sou sou louba Soura oina thengnarure
Thoibi oina pokcharakpi eidi
Torro punshi oina lenhoure!!

Ecstasy!!

Let me drunk with the ecstasy of your memory today
Let me have the fun today of hurting myself
Let me listen to the rhythm of your heartbeat once
Before I die
Oh! No, it should not happen again to anyone
What I did to myself?
I sang to myself
Out of nothingness
I cry for myself
For this emptiness inside
After you left
After you are gone beyond my eyes
I will not ask you again to come back today
I must forget as I have nothing to say now
But do let me feel your presence once again
Once again annoy me with your cry
I’m missing you badly my little brave heart
I want to feel your presence today in my life!!

My litle brave heart!!

I seek for my lost freedom today
As I had to hate the one I love
I want my liberty back
So that I can betray you again
I’m not an angel sent from the hell
Who would nurture your lost soul
I’m not that unseen divine
who can wash your sin
Accept me as what I’m
Torture me in loneliness if you wish too
I’m like just another shadow of you
So contaminated with myself
So mad with this life after you are gone
Please do not blame
for what I did to you
I’m just another human
Everyone can see and feel
I’m just another simple woman
Who had forbidden hearing to her own heart,
to her own mind a long ago!!

Who steal my happiness???

Who steal my happiness today?
The numb God??
The weird angel??
Who steal my peaceful moments?
It’s me, who show the foolishness within me
It’s me, who had walk on the road of thorn.
Hope the numb God will speak now
Tell me once before you forbid me
Who steal the love of my life?
Stay away from me forever God
Don't let me write another hatred poem for you
I do not need you again from today
You can come back only if,
Only if, you can bring back my love
Oh! Angel I don’t need your angelic smile either
Please go back to your hell
You can’t nurture the wound within me today
Go back to the place you belong
I have no space for you
The numb God
The weird angel
Hope you can hear me!!

Eigi thawaigi mamal!!

Anouba chahina lakpasida

Khanghouda hanglak-ee

Eigi meepaithiraba thawaisina

Hengalamadra haina eigi thawaigi mamal !!

Tenkhraba tamthikhraba

Punshi khongchat oirakle

Mathou tadabra etomta hangjaba

Eigi thawai gi mamalse !!
Chamamnaba poklakli khanbada
Khangde kannabu ligadouribano

Choukhraba taibang sana keithelsida eise

Khoiranglake pukningsisu khangningbana

Karamba JAC nabu kannahoudouriro

Eigi thawai gi mamal sidagi

Charang-narakle leitradaba wakhalsisu

Leihourani khallubada makhoidi

Arang arakna thallaba phura dallal kyada

Mantiknakhraba thawaisingi mamal na

Kallakpadum phourak ee
Thouhougaba tanglaba billat ki gari kayasu
Apat-apumna thallaba

Imphal sahargi sarakta
Gandhi yekpa bharat ki chejetsingna
Sinakhrabada eigi thawaidi!!

Onkhragani makhoisu sahingchaba

Tangkhrani loudroubigumba mamitsingsu
Teithokhrani gumbhir gi pirangsingsu

Pangkhragani samu managum

Gandhi yekta bharat ki chejetsing na

Koichai chairabada narak mongsong youna

Nakenthagi unagumna ningtham ulen lakpada!!

Matamduna kaplakhini tengtharakhini

Eigi mantiknakhraba thawaina

Taibang sana keithel mayai da

Muna muna yengduna

Mapu pandraba ashiba sagumna

Saraki chidaida ningaidana

Tahouriba eigi hakchangbu uraga.

Boycott Ended!! Why and How???

"Class to be resumed from tomorrow. Boycott ended". Akee updated the news in the middle of the night. Got some relief thinking about all the students who have lost 6 months of their valuable time? After 6 months finally more than 10 lakhs students are blessed to return with their so called right to education. They came to a conclusion to break the deadlock, the govt. and the organizations. I'm against all kind of killing in Manipur and every simple citizen (minus the militants and the police force) is unhappy and totally saddened with the July 23 incident. But only regretting part of the protest was that instead of knowing that our leader has no value for its citizen, the student organizations took up a way to protest which can only spoil the future of more that 10 lakhs student in Manipur. I would be enjoying the sadistic pleasure in case the protesting organizations have shut down, even burnt the govt. organisation as a extreme step and let the govt realized of it's unbearable big lazy ass. Though I don't prefer any kind of agitation which will only led to more damage to our economic status. But why make a compromise with the future of students? Today's headline news in Thoudang makes me feel myself so unfortunate of being Manipuri. It's needless to say anything about Manipur. It's a state where all the people have lost the humane side. We can somewhat state that Manipur is land of animals where people can be bought and sold and if necessary slaughter at nay given time. No value for human life, dignity and existence. What else is left with us. Now, I feel that why should we blame the govt. or the persons who is leading the system. Have we ever done something which would prove that we are a responsible citizen other than criticizing and protesting and burning? If necessary, we can even call for a civil war against the govt. but isn't a time for us to think that have we been so self-righteous so that we can pin-point to other's mistake. Are we the responsible for the govt. or the handful of miscreants playing with our lives? Obviously yes??? We sold our dignity & right to such people by compromising with money and fame and now we don't have any right to complain that we should not be slaughtered or we deserve to be alive.

In the last six months every parents have to suffer from so many troubles regarding their kids’ career. Every day I even have to break my head thinking about my two brothers and sister who are sitting idle without any purpose at home. My mother has lost her ability to control their anger and frustration. Logically speaking what would be the psychological effect to the mind of a 13 yr old and 16 yr old boy who is just sitting at home who was devoid of education facilities? Sometime it's frightening to think that they even lost their interest in reading and its importance. Finally as other parents have no option and have to look for another option of sending them off for schooling in other places. I have finally decided to admit them in Delhi and stay with me. It's obviously good that students are back in school but who knows and who can guess the mood of the organizations and the govt.? When will they again play with the lives of the student and at what moment they can again shut down the schools, we never know about it. So it's better to leave now instead of portraying yourself as a cartoon/clown of JAC's and the govt. of Manipur even if I know that it is not the solution. But my sympathy and concern goes to all those students who can not afford to leave the state and pursue their education. Hope God will find them a way in such God forbidden place!!