An eye of hope and dream,
That’s what you have shown to me,
A seed of change
That’s what you have ever
Sown to me,
Change in the meaning of freedom,
Change in the meaning of equality,
Change in the meaning of humanity,
That’s what you have taught me ever!
We were walking alone in a road
Filled with the thorns and stones,
Fighting for our own space in a society,
Where your mother is your enemy,
Your father is your enemy,
Your brother is your enemy,
Your sister is your enemy
Your own existence become your enemy
At the end of the day,
You are known as a woman only!
You are a daughter to your father,
You are a sister your brothers,
You are a wife to your husband,
You are a loving and caring mother
To your children,
You are the one
Who would die and sacrifice for them,
But at the end of the day,
You are just a woman,
No one will ever remember
Your heart also beats with a rhythm,
Your lungs also breathe with the free oxygen,
Just like other human!
You are just a turtle,
Who walks in silence and fear,
And hides her head and toes,
Beneath her back,
Just to survive and just free from
The obligations of your own existence!
You are an idealistic creation of God,
Who never wrote her own definition,
Who never lives her life,
Who never heard her own heartbeat,
She lives with a definition
adorn by the society and the men,
You heart can beat
only with the rhythm of your man,
In a society of patriarchs
You have many names
You are merely a beast,
You are merely a prostitute,
You are merely a call girl,
You are merely a widow,
You are merely an omen
And to the men living around you,
Because at the end of the day
You are just remembered as a woman,
Not a human!
It’s not the time to sought for equality,
It’s not the time to scream for woman’s right,
It’s not the time to fight for the special reservation,
Shall we not feel ashamed for what we are?
Let’s represent ourselves as a human first,
Let’s break from the chains of the morality,
Let’s free ourselves from being a cultural ambassador,
Let’s be a human first,
Then the rest will come along!!
What is meaning of a society?
What is meaning of culture?
What is the meaning of religion,
If you are not known as a human!!
Don’t only dream of
Being a better half of a man,
Let them also dream of being a better half of you,
Why not man also enjoy
Being your better half??
Let them also know that
They are remain of our impure and untouchable blood,
From there lives springs,
From there,
Sown their soul!
It is not the not war of sex anymore,
You must fight for now,
It is the war of your existence,
Which you must win!
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
I search for you!!
It’s in the morning dew
I search for you,
It’s in the teardrops hiding in my eyes
I search for you,
It’s in the fallen leaves of the autumn
I search for you,
It’s in the unsung songs of my heart
I search for you,
It’s in the reminiscences of my memory
I still search for you,
It’s amidst the crowd of unknown,
I again search for you
I search for you,
I search for you,
Just to find myself
I search for you
I search for you
to find the remain in me without you!!
I search for you,
It’s in the teardrops hiding in my eyes
I search for you,
It’s in the fallen leaves of the autumn
I search for you,
It’s in the unsung songs of my heart
I search for you,
It’s in the reminiscences of my memory
I still search for you,
It’s amidst the crowd of unknown,
I again search for you
I search for you,
I search for you,
Just to find myself
I search for you
I search for you
to find the remain in me without you!!
Perfume really scared me!!
Watching movie in the late night with a big cup of tea or coffee always give a different taste. Since the whole world was in sleep, you can enjoy such rare moments of silence and that’s an opportunity for me to watch movie of my favorite. One of my friends smsed about the movie some days back saying that the movie was just awesome and the theme was different from all. But I never thought that I will have a nightmare after watching the movie and will have to face with constant fear of bad dreams.
Perfume-A story of a murderer. When the movie was starting I was too much absorbed and thoroughly enjoyed it as the theme was truly different and it is a thriller. Film’s main protagonist is a boy born with his God-given extraordinary sense of smelling and knowing each and every thing on the earth from the smell. I was feeling pity for the ill-faith life of the boy who was abandoned by his mother just after he was born but was delighted for his extraordinary power of noticing the things with smell. I was telling Lin, God has always given something special to the one who had no one for him on this earth. Wow! What a magic philosophy!!
Lin and I were so excited when the guy was learning to prepare perfume in the lab for the first time. His lab looks like our suffocated,fumed and dull Chemistry lab of Delhi University with bottles of chemicals lined up in the racks of the wall. When the owner of the perfume shop taught him how to extract essential oils from the flowers and showing the distillation part from the hot distillation pot, we begun our discussion about the solvent he should used for better distillation output and the reactant to fasten the process, as both of us are from chemistry background. We were lost somewhere while our discussion directed into distillation process. Both of us were quite happy when we even solved the problem of how to extract the essentail oils from the animal body, when the guy was seen boiling the lovely cat of the owner in the pot of the hot water. We were telling to each other, oh! he could have done with alcohol or wax?? It seems like we are also in the same lab with the guy in the movie and somewhat helping him to choose the appropriate solvent for extraction. After he learnt the process of perfume preparation in his lab, our enthusiasm turns into something else. Our concentration is now on the psychology of the guy. Poor guy with extraordinary sense of smelling scared us the whole night. His stunt facial expression of not able to express any emotions of humans such as love, affection, care, hatred etc made us more uncomfortable and scary.
The movie show the psychology of a guy who have never seen and interacted with a woman! A guy who never feel the human emotions! A guy who have never smell a woman! A guy who had no smell for his own body though he knows the smell of each and every living and non-living objects on the earth! With heavy head we were deeply absorbed in the movie till the late night. Now we seem be regretted of helping him in choosing the solvent for distillation. We were just praying inside that hey don’t kill her, please, she is so beautiful and innocent, and worried enough we said to ourselves when the movie saw his hunting work for the girls to prepare a perfume with an anticipated smell of a woman, he had killed by mistake. He never realized till the end of the movie, the reason for following the girls and why can’t he still not able to forget her. But when he realized the reason for not able to forget her, he kills self. His emotionally impotent life, pity enough to realize at the last moment, human emotions is something lacking in his life without which human can’t live, that’s something God had deprived from him.
With a sad note the movie come to an end, after the man kill himself using the perfume, to the same place where he was born with a self realization of the fact that he can achieve anything he wishes to in this world but he can never feel the human emotions, he can never love anyone though the whole world may be there to bow their head in front of him.
It is that Perfume which he had prepared from the waxed oils of the women’s body killed him without even leaving a piece of his flesh on the earth.
After a few minutes of deep sleep, I wake up due to bad dreams and fear of the psycho of the man. I was calling some of my friend and narrating the story of the movie so that I can cope up with the fear till the afternoon. Even now I had to keep the lights on and play some music continuously and go for sleep. Perfume really scared me!!
Perfume-A story of a murderer. When the movie was starting I was too much absorbed and thoroughly enjoyed it as the theme was truly different and it is a thriller. Film’s main protagonist is a boy born with his God-given extraordinary sense of smelling and knowing each and every thing on the earth from the smell. I was feeling pity for the ill-faith life of the boy who was abandoned by his mother just after he was born but was delighted for his extraordinary power of noticing the things with smell. I was telling Lin, God has always given something special to the one who had no one for him on this earth. Wow! What a magic philosophy!!
Lin and I were so excited when the guy was learning to prepare perfume in the lab for the first time. His lab looks like our suffocated,fumed and dull Chemistry lab of Delhi University with bottles of chemicals lined up in the racks of the wall. When the owner of the perfume shop taught him how to extract essential oils from the flowers and showing the distillation part from the hot distillation pot, we begun our discussion about the solvent he should used for better distillation output and the reactant to fasten the process, as both of us are from chemistry background. We were lost somewhere while our discussion directed into distillation process. Both of us were quite happy when we even solved the problem of how to extract the essentail oils from the animal body, when the guy was seen boiling the lovely cat of the owner in the pot of the hot water. We were telling to each other, oh! he could have done with alcohol or wax?? It seems like we are also in the same lab with the guy in the movie and somewhat helping him to choose the appropriate solvent for extraction. After he learnt the process of perfume preparation in his lab, our enthusiasm turns into something else. Our concentration is now on the psychology of the guy. Poor guy with extraordinary sense of smelling scared us the whole night. His stunt facial expression of not able to express any emotions of humans such as love, affection, care, hatred etc made us more uncomfortable and scary.
The movie show the psychology of a guy who have never seen and interacted with a woman! A guy who never feel the human emotions! A guy who have never smell a woman! A guy who had no smell for his own body though he knows the smell of each and every living and non-living objects on the earth! With heavy head we were deeply absorbed in the movie till the late night. Now we seem be regretted of helping him in choosing the solvent for distillation. We were just praying inside that hey don’t kill her, please, she is so beautiful and innocent, and worried enough we said to ourselves when the movie saw his hunting work for the girls to prepare a perfume with an anticipated smell of a woman, he had killed by mistake. He never realized till the end of the movie, the reason for following the girls and why can’t he still not able to forget her. But when he realized the reason for not able to forget her, he kills self. His emotionally impotent life, pity enough to realize at the last moment, human emotions is something lacking in his life without which human can’t live, that’s something God had deprived from him.
With a sad note the movie come to an end, after the man kill himself using the perfume, to the same place where he was born with a self realization of the fact that he can achieve anything he wishes to in this world but he can never feel the human emotions, he can never love anyone though the whole world may be there to bow their head in front of him.
It is that Perfume which he had prepared from the waxed oils of the women’s body killed him without even leaving a piece of his flesh on the earth.
After a few minutes of deep sleep, I wake up due to bad dreams and fear of the psycho of the man. I was calling some of my friend and narrating the story of the movie so that I can cope up with the fear till the afternoon. Even now I had to keep the lights on and play some music continuously and go for sleep. Perfume really scared me!!
Monday, November 9, 2009
Nostalgia!!
All I need as of now is to compose myself and stay away from this fear of feeling homesick. I have spent nine years in Delhi but I still feel homesick just like I leave home few hours back. I’m lost in own fantasies of going home every now and then. Sometime I wake suddenly in the night and start counting in the calendar. Next day my mood will be off after I recount all the incomplete things line up on my way. Spoke to Ima after a hectic day of running here and there; as I could not sleep in peace without telling all the petty things I had faced in a day to her. Sometime she seems too boring with all my stories but she adjusted herself to my childish behavior.
Yesterday Ima came up with a new topic happening in my village. It was about the marriage of one of my far cousin. Though we were too close in childhood, we hardly talked to each other now because of many reasons. Ima said finally she got married. Her parents are running from pillar to pillar just to get her married. I had to ask her why she was using such phrase. It seems too odd to hear. Running pillar to pillar for getting married!! She is too beautiful and I know many guys run after him since then she was in class seven. Suddenly remembered her elopment with a guy when she was just sixteen years old. I told myself I got your point. While Ima trying to start with her advice of what are the maxims, a girl should know to live a dignified life, I had to say bye to her as I started to lose my own conscience of being a human. Keep on thinking about that little girl who was cute, beautiful and innocent. She was with me all the time when she was kid but after class eight she has lost her interest in study and we never had a common platform to meet. Now people have created an image for her after her elopement in a younger age. I got angry with the foolishness of her parents who never give importance to her education but cheer her up if she comes back from a date and praised by some guys passing on the road for her looks. I had to accept that this is the faith of the most of the girls in the village and small town places who were born to the illiterate parents and the society is there to bind them from all the angles. My cousins also faced the same faith.
Got angry with my own people, society and even with my own family for making her just an object whose only purpose in life is marriage. I know marriage is important in everybody’s life, at the end of the day we need somebody whom you can trust and share all your moments of sadness and happiness. But why should we get married at the cost of wasting the meaning & purpose of this life?? I feel like waking up Ima in the late night and ask her why do you people want her to get married so soon and doesn’t she have any purpose in her life other than finding a husband. I didn’t wake her up as I know she will be frightened again with such argument which she never wishes to hear from me.
Again remember my own sister who got married last year and now blessed with a baby boy. I still argue with her for leaving her teaching job in a private school and choosing to become a full time house-wife. Still I’m irritated with her in-laws words of asking her how much you will earn from the salary of a private school. She must be still angry with me for my objection to buy all the unnecessary stuffs as “aoonpot” during her marriage. I don’t know my sister will ever try to understand my words. I don’t want to see her portraying the role of a house wife only who has no authority, no life for herself. I wish she realized that that small sum she would earn from teaching the kids in the private schools and her evening tuitions would not be less than million dollars in her life. Moreover, the respect, value and the regard she would be getting from her job could never be challenged by anybody. I have no objection to becoming a house wife if the husband, family and the society dignify it as any other white color job and give them the respect and the authority; they must get being a member of the family. But who understand and count the petty sweats, a house wife would be wasting to run the house from early morning to late night to raise her kids and to take care of her husband and the in-laws. At the end of the day people counts on your job, and money which can only buy the momentary happiness in our life, not to the human value of you. Even their own children sometime would feel that my mother is jobless forgetting all the sacrifice she had done for them and the family.
Tired with my own discussion and arguments, I had to bow my head to myself to end this discussion here as I'm left with only few hours to sleep.
Yesterday Ima came up with a new topic happening in my village. It was about the marriage of one of my far cousin. Though we were too close in childhood, we hardly talked to each other now because of many reasons. Ima said finally she got married. Her parents are running from pillar to pillar just to get her married. I had to ask her why she was using such phrase. It seems too odd to hear. Running pillar to pillar for getting married!! She is too beautiful and I know many guys run after him since then she was in class seven. Suddenly remembered her elopment with a guy when she was just sixteen years old. I told myself I got your point. While Ima trying to start with her advice of what are the maxims, a girl should know to live a dignified life, I had to say bye to her as I started to lose my own conscience of being a human. Keep on thinking about that little girl who was cute, beautiful and innocent. She was with me all the time when she was kid but after class eight she has lost her interest in study and we never had a common platform to meet. Now people have created an image for her after her elopement in a younger age. I got angry with the foolishness of her parents who never give importance to her education but cheer her up if she comes back from a date and praised by some guys passing on the road for her looks. I had to accept that this is the faith of the most of the girls in the village and small town places who were born to the illiterate parents and the society is there to bind them from all the angles. My cousins also faced the same faith.
Got angry with my own people, society and even with my own family for making her just an object whose only purpose in life is marriage. I know marriage is important in everybody’s life, at the end of the day we need somebody whom you can trust and share all your moments of sadness and happiness. But why should we get married at the cost of wasting the meaning & purpose of this life?? I feel like waking up Ima in the late night and ask her why do you people want her to get married so soon and doesn’t she have any purpose in her life other than finding a husband. I didn’t wake her up as I know she will be frightened again with such argument which she never wishes to hear from me.
Again remember my own sister who got married last year and now blessed with a baby boy. I still argue with her for leaving her teaching job in a private school and choosing to become a full time house-wife. Still I’m irritated with her in-laws words of asking her how much you will earn from the salary of a private school. She must be still angry with me for my objection to buy all the unnecessary stuffs as “aoonpot” during her marriage. I don’t know my sister will ever try to understand my words. I don’t want to see her portraying the role of a house wife only who has no authority, no life for herself. I wish she realized that that small sum she would earn from teaching the kids in the private schools and her evening tuitions would not be less than million dollars in her life. Moreover, the respect, value and the regard she would be getting from her job could never be challenged by anybody. I have no objection to becoming a house wife if the husband, family and the society dignify it as any other white color job and give them the respect and the authority; they must get being a member of the family. But who understand and count the petty sweats, a house wife would be wasting to run the house from early morning to late night to raise her kids and to take care of her husband and the in-laws. At the end of the day people counts on your job, and money which can only buy the momentary happiness in our life, not to the human value of you. Even their own children sometime would feel that my mother is jobless forgetting all the sacrifice she had done for them and the family.
Tired with my own discussion and arguments, I had to bow my head to myself to end this discussion here as I'm left with only few hours to sleep.
Revolution!!
We need to create a new revolution, and to do that, do not waste your life: stop pleasing people and become who you always wanted to be..!!
Thursday, November 5, 2009
Recalling the moments with you!!
When you linger on your old memories, when you open an old diary you are different, you feel different, and you are in a different world. Your old memory was your love only.
It may give you tears and pain but without it life will be meaningless. When I open my diary of early 2k, it surely made me cry but the emotion was so true and pure. NietherI could afford to buy it nor can I feel it again. I thought my soul is too contaminated now. I’m in search of that purity in my soul. When I re-read the poem which I wrote for him after the school, sitting near the window, I was with him again and floating in his world. I thought I’m still talking to the moon and sharing my dreams about him as I always do in the late night.
I still remember waiting for his mail for long hours and chatting for hours till late night in the cyber cafe in the foggy nights of Delhi. It was an unforgettable day in my life when I talked to him for the first time on phone for hours, I could never forget his voice, still his voice keep my soul alive whenever I remember those days. Whatever the reason it may be but my love for him was true and pure. I could never lei that I didn't love him just because he is not in my life. Wherever he is now, I always wish him for the best things in his life.
I still maintain his photographs and could never gather the courage to delete it from my inbox but I never wish to open them and look at him, it may remind me of his negative side. I don't wish to keep any bad memory about him. It was most difficult task in my life when I tried to forget him. But life goes on like this. I had to move ahead along with that pain in search of another meaning of this life. With time he lives as a shadow in my life. Sometime I forgot to notice him but somewhere he does exist in the deepest corner of my heart.
I could hardly remember how much I love him, never bother to make him understand too, never give an effort to forget or remember him but I forgot to feel the same feeling of love for another person in my life.
I still feel that somewhere I owe his love. But till today after so many years, I got only one answer to my own queries that we are not even a stranger to each other. Neither I bother to hear about him nor is he interested to know about me anymore.
Why do this feeling of apprehension come up to my mind, which says he is not the one I have ever waited for years and spent sleepless nights weeping those meaningless tears just to hear his voice again. I'm able to hear his voice again, I able to reach him again but never had the courage to speak to him and see him though he stays so near to me.
I wish, I could still wait for him in the bus stand after the school, just to get a glimpse of his smile before I leave for home. I still wish to feel that anxiety which I used to feel when I could not find him near the Bus stand. I just wish, every now and then these feelings of nothingness always fill up my hollow heart which you left empty years back.
Written on the night of 31st December, 2005 after I wish him for the New Year and to make another promise to look ahead in life without him and his dreams.
It may give you tears and pain but without it life will be meaningless. When I open my diary of early 2k, it surely made me cry but the emotion was so true and pure. NietherI could afford to buy it nor can I feel it again. I thought my soul is too contaminated now. I’m in search of that purity in my soul. When I re-read the poem which I wrote for him after the school, sitting near the window, I was with him again and floating in his world. I thought I’m still talking to the moon and sharing my dreams about him as I always do in the late night.
I still remember waiting for his mail for long hours and chatting for hours till late night in the cyber cafe in the foggy nights of Delhi. It was an unforgettable day in my life when I talked to him for the first time on phone for hours, I could never forget his voice, still his voice keep my soul alive whenever I remember those days. Whatever the reason it may be but my love for him was true and pure. I could never lei that I didn't love him just because he is not in my life. Wherever he is now, I always wish him for the best things in his life.
I still maintain his photographs and could never gather the courage to delete it from my inbox but I never wish to open them and look at him, it may remind me of his negative side. I don't wish to keep any bad memory about him. It was most difficult task in my life when I tried to forget him. But life goes on like this. I had to move ahead along with that pain in search of another meaning of this life. With time he lives as a shadow in my life. Sometime I forgot to notice him but somewhere he does exist in the deepest corner of my heart.
I could hardly remember how much I love him, never bother to make him understand too, never give an effort to forget or remember him but I forgot to feel the same feeling of love for another person in my life.
I still feel that somewhere I owe his love. But till today after so many years, I got only one answer to my own queries that we are not even a stranger to each other. Neither I bother to hear about him nor is he interested to know about me anymore.
Why do this feeling of apprehension come up to my mind, which says he is not the one I have ever waited for years and spent sleepless nights weeping those meaningless tears just to hear his voice again. I'm able to hear his voice again, I able to reach him again but never had the courage to speak to him and see him though he stays so near to me.
I wish, I could still wait for him in the bus stand after the school, just to get a glimpse of his smile before I leave for home. I still wish to feel that anxiety which I used to feel when I could not find him near the Bus stand. I just wish, every now and then these feelings of nothingness always fill up my hollow heart which you left empty years back.
Written on the night of 31st December, 2005 after I wish him for the New Year and to make another promise to look ahead in life without him and his dreams.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Concerned citizens of state meet Union Jt Home Secy
Source: Hueiyen News Service
http://e-pao.net/GP.asp?src=22..051109.nov09
New Delhi, November 04 2009: "We are aware of the boycott issue in Manipur and it is considered as top priority to be addressed by the Centre.
We are in the process of finding a solution and are in constant touch with the state government and I am hopeful that classes will resume shortly," Naveen Verma, Joint Secretary of (NE), Ministry of Home Affairs, Government of India, is quoted to have said during a meeting with the representatives of a group of Manipuri professionals residing across India today.
According to a statement issued by the representatives of the group, Manipuri professionals residing across Indian met with Naveen Verma, Joint Secretary of (NE), Ministry of Home Affairs, Government of India, and apprised him of the ongoing class boycott.
The citizens concerned have also submitted a memorandum to impress the State government in finding a solution to end the boycott called by various organisations in the state of Manipur.
The meeting lasted for over two hours.
The group stated in the memorandum that the inability of the State Government to end the stalemate between the student bodies and the government could have long-term consequences to students in Manipur.
The memorandum seeks an immediate solution to defuse the deadlock over boycott of educational institutions in Manipur.
"We, as citizen of Manipur strongly condemns any act of violence and we will support any attempt that will bring peace in the state of Manipur.
However, we believe that bringing peace at the cost of thousands of students is unjust," said a representative of the group.
The group reiterated that the present situation in Manipur calls for the Government to react swiftly to find a solution to the ongoing political and social imbroglio.
The group expressed concern over numerous reports about a possible dialogue between the agitators and the government, which has so far yielded no result, a serious concern for the parents whose children has been affected by the boycott.
As a part of the memorandum, the group submitted a copy of Tahelka magazine which carries the photos of the alleged fake-encounter killing on July 23rd in Imphal.
http://e-pao.net/GP.asp?src=22..051109.nov09
New Delhi, November 04 2009: "We are aware of the boycott issue in Manipur and it is considered as top priority to be addressed by the Centre.
We are in the process of finding a solution and are in constant touch with the state government and I am hopeful that classes will resume shortly," Naveen Verma, Joint Secretary of (NE), Ministry of Home Affairs, Government of India, is quoted to have said during a meeting with the representatives of a group of Manipuri professionals residing across India today.
According to a statement issued by the representatives of the group, Manipuri professionals residing across Indian met with Naveen Verma, Joint Secretary of (NE), Ministry of Home Affairs, Government of India, and apprised him of the ongoing class boycott.
The citizens concerned have also submitted a memorandum to impress the State government in finding a solution to end the boycott called by various organisations in the state of Manipur.
The meeting lasted for over two hours.
The group stated in the memorandum that the inability of the State Government to end the stalemate between the student bodies and the government could have long-term consequences to students in Manipur.
The memorandum seeks an immediate solution to defuse the deadlock over boycott of educational institutions in Manipur.
"We, as citizen of Manipur strongly condemns any act of violence and we will support any attempt that will bring peace in the state of Manipur.
However, we believe that bringing peace at the cost of thousands of students is unjust," said a representative of the group.
The group reiterated that the present situation in Manipur calls for the Government to react swiftly to find a solution to the ongoing political and social imbroglio.
The group expressed concern over numerous reports about a possible dialogue between the agitators and the government, which has so far yielded no result, a serious concern for the parents whose children has been affected by the boycott.
As a part of the memorandum, the group submitted a copy of Tahelka magazine which carries the photos of the alleged fake-encounter killing on July 23rd in Imphal.
Expats meet jt. secy Home to urge Centre to intervene
Imphal free press
6 hours, 45 minutes, 29 seconds ago
From Nelson Elangbam
New Delhi, Nov 4 : A group of Manipuri professional residing across India met with Naveen Verma, joint secretary (NE), Ministry of Home Affairs, Government of India, to appraise him of the ongoing schools boycott and submitted a memorandum to request the state to find a solution to end the boycott by various organizations in the state.
The meeting lasted for over two hours.
The boycott initiated by All Manipur Student Union (AMSU), Manipur Student Federation (MSF) and Kangleipak Student Association (KSA) in the aftermath of the July 23rd incident that led to the death of a pregnant women, Th. Rabina and a civilian Ch. Sanjit has paralysed education in the state for nearly two months now.
The group in their memorandum stated that the inability of the state government to end the stalemate between the student bodies and the government could have severe long-term consequences to students in Manipur.
The memorandum sought an immediate solution to defuse the deadlock over boycott of educational institutions in Manipur.
“We, as citizen of Manipur strongly condemn any act of violence and we will support any attempt that will bring peace in the state of Manipur. However, we believe that bringing peace at the cost of thousand of students is unjust,” said a representative of the group.
The group reiterated that the present situation in Manipur calls for the government to react swiftly to find a solution to the ongoing political and social imbroglio.
Naveen Verma said, “We are aware of the boycott issue in Manipur and it is considered as top priority to be addressed by the Centre. We are in the process of finding a solution and are in constant touch with the state government and I am hopeful that classes will resume shortly”.
The group expressed concern as well as hope over numerous reports about a possible dialogue between the agitators and the government which has so far yielded no result.
The matter is of serious concern for parents whose children face the prospect of losing one academic year.
As a part of the memorandum, the group submitted a copy of Tahelka’s the Vol. 6, Issue 31, which a photo essay of the alleged killing on July 23rd in Imphal, an ‘Open Letter to Honorable Prime Minister of India-Stop the Killing in Manipur’, Various newspaper reports post the July 23rd incident and a copy of a joint press release, which were sent to media houses on October 30.
6 hours, 45 minutes, 29 seconds ago
From Nelson Elangbam
New Delhi, Nov 4 : A group of Manipuri professional residing across India met with Naveen Verma, joint secretary (NE), Ministry of Home Affairs, Government of India, to appraise him of the ongoing schools boycott and submitted a memorandum to request the state to find a solution to end the boycott by various organizations in the state.
The meeting lasted for over two hours.
The boycott initiated by All Manipur Student Union (AMSU), Manipur Student Federation (MSF) and Kangleipak Student Association (KSA) in the aftermath of the July 23rd incident that led to the death of a pregnant women, Th. Rabina and a civilian Ch. Sanjit has paralysed education in the state for nearly two months now.
The group in their memorandum stated that the inability of the state government to end the stalemate between the student bodies and the government could have severe long-term consequences to students in Manipur.
The memorandum sought an immediate solution to defuse the deadlock over boycott of educational institutions in Manipur.
“We, as citizen of Manipur strongly condemn any act of violence and we will support any attempt that will bring peace in the state of Manipur. However, we believe that bringing peace at the cost of thousand of students is unjust,” said a representative of the group.
The group reiterated that the present situation in Manipur calls for the government to react swiftly to find a solution to the ongoing political and social imbroglio.
Naveen Verma said, “We are aware of the boycott issue in Manipur and it is considered as top priority to be addressed by the Centre. We are in the process of finding a solution and are in constant touch with the state government and I am hopeful that classes will resume shortly”.
The group expressed concern as well as hope over numerous reports about a possible dialogue between the agitators and the government which has so far yielded no result.
The matter is of serious concern for parents whose children face the prospect of losing one academic year.
As a part of the memorandum, the group submitted a copy of Tahelka’s the Vol. 6, Issue 31, which a photo essay of the alleged killing on July 23rd in Imphal, an ‘Open Letter to Honorable Prime Minister of India-Stop the Killing in Manipur’, Various newspaper reports post the July 23rd incident and a copy of a joint press release, which were sent to media houses on October 30.
Friday, October 30, 2009
End class boycott deadlock: Bodies
End class boycott deadlock: Bodies
Source: Hueiyen News Service
Imphal, October 29 2009: Concerned over the class boycott agitation in the state, nine different organisations have urged both the parties to give room for dialogue, to break the deadlock and come up with a consensus benefiting the future of our society.
In a joint statement, nine organisations including Linux Manipur; Don Bosco Imphal Alumni; Khoibu Students' Union, Delhi; Kuki Students' Organization, Delhi; Naga Students' Union, Delhi; International Manipuri Progressive Forum, UK; Little Flower Alumni; Manipur Youth Foundation; Zillai Yahoogroups (International) have appealed to all to support education and lift the class boycott and find other ways and means.
The joint statement urged the agitating students that the aim and aspirations of the students unions agitating against the ongoing state sponsored terrorism deserve full solidarity from the public.
The student organisations in its struggle for the ruling government to be held accountable for the various human rights violations in Manipur have resorted to boycotting students' education.
"But we believe firmly that the consequence of the ongoing education or class boycott, in the long run, can become counter-productive, subsequently can contradict to the very purpose these organizations are seeking through the agitation, thereby rising the possibility of their image being perceived in a wrong light," the joint statement read.
Stating that any democratic protest has its own momentum and can ebb away slowly on its own as its driving force wane gradually, the statement observed that many incidents have happened and many protests and strikes have beengone through but the government, especially unaccountable ones, knows surely that it is not going to last.
"In fact, if we really look into the matter the public would even begin to forget the purpose behind the agitation of the student's Union.
During these critical phases many of the parents, guardians, teachers and general public are of the opinion that ongoing form of protest might be against the welfare of the people as due to the prolonged boycott of students' education," it stated.
The statement noted that the agitation has, to many, alarmingly look as if many of the public might have turned against the students associations, unfortunately forgetting the alleged crimes and injustice of the government.
The government is, as seen in the past, seems to be focused in just buying time, during which can result in an undesirable contradiction and distrust between the public and the agitating bodies, thereby resulting in a possible nullification of each other.
At that time, the statement observed, the public will then be again, might be left with nothing, without justice! .
It stated that had the government been truly democratic, then they would have never indulged in militarisation and its resulting gross violation.
Instead, any democratic government would have listened and act upon, to the many public outcry against the multiple fake encounters which have claimed thousands of lives till today.
Any ideal government would have initiated dialogues with the students' Unions regarding the boycott of children's education so as to safeguard the right to education.
But, instead of such prior justified responsible actions, the government has been playing with the fundamental civil rights and emotions of the public.
The government has done nothing that a democratic government should be doing, the statement noted.
These basic distortions and anomaly in the roots needs to be corrected for a prosperous future democratic society, but in an effort and protest to correct these basic wrongs, the use of class or education boycott can be interpreted as "too shallow and a counter-productive" method to be used, it observed.
"This crucial moment calls for a better and effective strategy which can exert a much intensifying and effective pressure to the government.
We would like to request to the various student's organization to please understand the need of continuation of a productive education especially during these unfortunate time, for we believe that in the long run, it is the best means to move our society to the form of humane democracy, we all aspire," it added.
Calling the government, the joint statement categorically asked the government why they are still sitting idle while the lives of thousands of the students are at stake.
"Why is the government taking a safe side by just being a silent spectator in the present situation? What is the purpose of the existence of a government that takes no responsibility for any kind of public grievance? Why has the government not come up with a forum to bring certain form of negotiation with the student organizations?," it asked.
"If the government is irresponsible and fails to understand the importance of the lives of thousands of students then we question the rationale behind its existence.
It is a clear signal that the present government is unable to handle the situation," it added.
The statement pointed out that if the government has any consideration for the students and the general public then it should have taken the initiative to speak to the student bodies to break the deadlock from the very first day of the class boycott.
The silence of the Government all this while only shows its lack of interest and carefree attitude toward the public.
If there is even an iota of concern left for justice then the government should move forward and arrange for a table of negotiations over which political dialogue can be conducted in order to solve the impasse.
Silence and indifference is worst than anything and it will only lead to further confusions deadlock will only get tighter, it stated.
The Government's silence only shows that it has no respect for the people, their lives and their dignity.
The government, that does not enjoy any support from the general public, has lost its legitimacy.
It is facing an inherent contradiction and sooner or later it can crumble on its own, it noted.
"How long is the government continue to remain indifferent and unaccountable from its responsibilities? It is necessary for the government to know and accept its fault and try to find ways of correcting themselves.
It must constantly be reminded that such boycott came up because of the dictatorial attitude of the government and its gross violation of civil rights and violent militarization of our state over a period of time," the statement noted.
Drawing the concerned of both the parties, the statement observed that there is a crucial need for a re-evaluation and reconfirmation of the purpose of education.
Education can give jobs, make a person much enlightened, and make one understand the society better.
But the main purpose of education is to make someone capable of questioning the existing systems -political, economic, social or ethical if any of these systems perpetuate subjugation, oppression and exploitation and subsequently to denounce those unjust elements and resist and change them towards fairer ones.
"Our society is emaciated for want of these means provided by education.
In fact, the more we boycott classes the more political turmoil we are inviting in the long run.
Education is the only way to make people capable of making dialogue without which no human community can survive in peace.
In this dark and disappointing environment, education is the only ray of hope.
We call upon all to rise above to put forward education," it underlined.
Education is crucial to the life of our democracy.
In that sense, anybody who has been thinking about democracy has to think about education.
There is a profound connection between guaranteeing democratic rights and education as the foundation, which makes democracy work.
The founding of the common school, the public school was for the foundation for an effective and successful democracy.
The connection between schooling, citizenship and democracy is taken for granted, the statement elucidated.
Source: Hueiyen News Service
Imphal, October 29 2009: Concerned over the class boycott agitation in the state, nine different organisations have urged both the parties to give room for dialogue, to break the deadlock and come up with a consensus benefiting the future of our society.
In a joint statement, nine organisations including Linux Manipur; Don Bosco Imphal Alumni; Khoibu Students' Union, Delhi; Kuki Students' Organization, Delhi; Naga Students' Union, Delhi; International Manipuri Progressive Forum, UK; Little Flower Alumni; Manipur Youth Foundation; Zillai Yahoogroups (International) have appealed to all to support education and lift the class boycott and find other ways and means.
The joint statement urged the agitating students that the aim and aspirations of the students unions agitating against the ongoing state sponsored terrorism deserve full solidarity from the public.
The student organisations in its struggle for the ruling government to be held accountable for the various human rights violations in Manipur have resorted to boycotting students' education.
"But we believe firmly that the consequence of the ongoing education or class boycott, in the long run, can become counter-productive, subsequently can contradict to the very purpose these organizations are seeking through the agitation, thereby rising the possibility of their image being perceived in a wrong light," the joint statement read.
Stating that any democratic protest has its own momentum and can ebb away slowly on its own as its driving force wane gradually, the statement observed that many incidents have happened and many protests and strikes have beengone through but the government, especially unaccountable ones, knows surely that it is not going to last.
"In fact, if we really look into the matter the public would even begin to forget the purpose behind the agitation of the student's Union.
During these critical phases many of the parents, guardians, teachers and general public are of the opinion that ongoing form of protest might be against the welfare of the people as due to the prolonged boycott of students' education," it stated.
The statement noted that the agitation has, to many, alarmingly look as if many of the public might have turned against the students associations, unfortunately forgetting the alleged crimes and injustice of the government.
The government is, as seen in the past, seems to be focused in just buying time, during which can result in an undesirable contradiction and distrust between the public and the agitating bodies, thereby resulting in a possible nullification of each other.
At that time, the statement observed, the public will then be again, might be left with nothing, without justice! .
It stated that had the government been truly democratic, then they would have never indulged in militarisation and its resulting gross violation.
Instead, any democratic government would have listened and act upon, to the many public outcry against the multiple fake encounters which have claimed thousands of lives till today.
Any ideal government would have initiated dialogues with the students' Unions regarding the boycott of children's education so as to safeguard the right to education.
But, instead of such prior justified responsible actions, the government has been playing with the fundamental civil rights and emotions of the public.
The government has done nothing that a democratic government should be doing, the statement noted.
These basic distortions and anomaly in the roots needs to be corrected for a prosperous future democratic society, but in an effort and protest to correct these basic wrongs, the use of class or education boycott can be interpreted as "too shallow and a counter-productive" method to be used, it observed.
"This crucial moment calls for a better and effective strategy which can exert a much intensifying and effective pressure to the government.
We would like to request to the various student's organization to please understand the need of continuation of a productive education especially during these unfortunate time, for we believe that in the long run, it is the best means to move our society to the form of humane democracy, we all aspire," it added.
Calling the government, the joint statement categorically asked the government why they are still sitting idle while the lives of thousands of the students are at stake.
"Why is the government taking a safe side by just being a silent spectator in the present situation? What is the purpose of the existence of a government that takes no responsibility for any kind of public grievance? Why has the government not come up with a forum to bring certain form of negotiation with the student organizations?," it asked.
"If the government is irresponsible and fails to understand the importance of the lives of thousands of students then we question the rationale behind its existence.
It is a clear signal that the present government is unable to handle the situation," it added.
The statement pointed out that if the government has any consideration for the students and the general public then it should have taken the initiative to speak to the student bodies to break the deadlock from the very first day of the class boycott.
The silence of the Government all this while only shows its lack of interest and carefree attitude toward the public.
If there is even an iota of concern left for justice then the government should move forward and arrange for a table of negotiations over which political dialogue can be conducted in order to solve the impasse.
Silence and indifference is worst than anything and it will only lead to further confusions deadlock will only get tighter, it stated.
The Government's silence only shows that it has no respect for the people, their lives and their dignity.
The government, that does not enjoy any support from the general public, has lost its legitimacy.
It is facing an inherent contradiction and sooner or later it can crumble on its own, it noted.
"How long is the government continue to remain indifferent and unaccountable from its responsibilities? It is necessary for the government to know and accept its fault and try to find ways of correcting themselves.
It must constantly be reminded that such boycott came up because of the dictatorial attitude of the government and its gross violation of civil rights and violent militarization of our state over a period of time," the statement noted.
Drawing the concerned of both the parties, the statement observed that there is a crucial need for a re-evaluation and reconfirmation of the purpose of education.
Education can give jobs, make a person much enlightened, and make one understand the society better.
But the main purpose of education is to make someone capable of questioning the existing systems -political, economic, social or ethical if any of these systems perpetuate subjugation, oppression and exploitation and subsequently to denounce those unjust elements and resist and change them towards fairer ones.
"Our society is emaciated for want of these means provided by education.
In fact, the more we boycott classes the more political turmoil we are inviting in the long run.
Education is the only way to make people capable of making dialogue without which no human community can survive in peace.
In this dark and disappointing environment, education is the only ray of hope.
We call upon all to rise above to put forward education," it underlined.
Education is crucial to the life of our democracy.
In that sense, anybody who has been thinking about democracy has to think about education.
There is a profound connection between guaranteeing democratic rights and education as the foundation, which makes democracy work.
The founding of the common school, the public school was for the foundation for an effective and successful democracy.
The connection between schooling, citizenship and democracy is taken for granted, the statement elucidated.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Just another dream!!
No matter what life bring on my way
I will always be there for you,
I can't still ignore the feeling inside,
Seems it keep me alive every now and then,
Yeah, from the time I met you!!
But I’m also sad
Though I know nothing could stop
To be with you, only with you
That’s why sometime I run away from myself,
to deny the fact and to hide the real me,
I saw my anger to conceal my love,
I always hide my soft corner,
to move ahead in life with a fake smile,
and to lure my life with fake happiness,
But I’m still alone!!
Still I feel too lonely without you,
Still I sing that unsung song of my heart,
Still I murmur and recall the moment we have shared,
Still I catch the droplets of tears from my eyes,
to get a glimpse of you in it
And I still ask why you can’t love me!!
I didn’t get your answer yet,
But every now and then,
This feeling inside me is making me crazy,
Neither I can forget nor can I ignore,
I still wish to wait for you,
My eyes still look for you in this crowd
No matter whether you love me or not,
No matter whether you stand for me or not!!
You know why I’m still sad with you?
You didn’t let me go from you
You didn’t let me carry a bad memory of you
I want to you to hurt me
And go on in life with that feeling of hatred
But still you didn’t let me go!!
I will always be there for you,
I can't still ignore the feeling inside,
Seems it keep me alive every now and then,
Yeah, from the time I met you!!
But I’m also sad
Though I know nothing could stop
To be with you, only with you
That’s why sometime I run away from myself,
to deny the fact and to hide the real me,
I saw my anger to conceal my love,
I always hide my soft corner,
to move ahead in life with a fake smile,
and to lure my life with fake happiness,
But I’m still alone!!
Still I feel too lonely without you,
Still I sing that unsung song of my heart,
Still I murmur and recall the moment we have shared,
Still I catch the droplets of tears from my eyes,
to get a glimpse of you in it
And I still ask why you can’t love me!!
I didn’t get your answer yet,
But every now and then,
This feeling inside me is making me crazy,
Neither I can forget nor can I ignore,
I still wish to wait for you,
My eyes still look for you in this crowd
No matter whether you love me or not,
No matter whether you stand for me or not!!
You know why I’m still sad with you?
You didn’t let me go from you
You didn’t let me carry a bad memory of you
I want to you to hurt me
And go on in life with that feeling of hatred
But still you didn’t let me go!!
Friday, October 9, 2009
Hurt me!!
Had not you hurt me
I would have missed the beauty of my smile
Had not you hurt me
I would have missed the preciousness of my tears
Yes, Had not you hurt me,
I would have missed the beauty of my life!!
Come back to my life and hurt me again
Hurt me to make me fall in love with my life
Hurt me every passing moments
Hurt me whenever I remember you
Hurt my poor heart which only beats to the rhythm of your songs
Come back to my life and hurt me again
Hurt me again so that I can begin a new life
A life without you and your dream
Meaningful and worthy
A life not paints with your fake smile
Come back to my life and hurt me again
Hurt me again so that I could collect the courage
to gather the pieces of my wings
which you broke and left behind
like the pieces of paper
Come back to my life and hurt me again
Hurt me again so that I can fly
with the pieces of my broken wings
Hurt me again so that my heart forgets to beat
in your rhythm forever!!
I would have missed the beauty of my smile
Had not you hurt me
I would have missed the preciousness of my tears
Yes, Had not you hurt me,
I would have missed the beauty of my life!!
Come back to my life and hurt me again
Hurt me to make me fall in love with my life
Hurt me every passing moments
Hurt me whenever I remember you
Hurt my poor heart which only beats to the rhythm of your songs
Come back to my life and hurt me again
Hurt me again so that I can begin a new life
A life without you and your dream
Meaningful and worthy
A life not paints with your fake smile
Come back to my life and hurt me again
Hurt me again so that I could collect the courage
to gather the pieces of my wings
which you broke and left behind
like the pieces of paper
Come back to my life and hurt me again
Hurt me again so that I can fly
with the pieces of my broken wings
Hurt me again so that my heart forgets to beat
in your rhythm forever!!
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Appeal to lift the boycott!!
Dear Brothers and Sisters of the Jeweled Land –
Education in its broadest sense is any act or experience that has a formative effect on the mind, character or physical ability of an individual. In its technical sense education is the process by which society deliberately transmits its accumulated knowledge, skills and values from one generation to another.
A lot has happened in the last many years in Manipur that has degraded our society, however, each one of us live in some hope that all these will come to pass. The older generations fought, suffered and lived through it. But do we want our younger generation go through it all over again? Perhaps not!
In an ideal world, what has happened in Manipur could be termed as equivalent to a holocaust. The sheer disrespect for human lives is almost shocking but then, it was what we have created and we must constantly look for avenues for change and make survival worthwhile even in the worst of time.
In the past few months, many schools in the state have been shut by various organizations in the state as a protest against fake encounters. We empathize with them in their quest to bring stability to the state and they will find every single Manipuri supporting them in their quest to bring peace. However, in the same breathe, we would like to point out that, perhaps, banning the young children from going to school to achieve peace and stability is not at all conducive, considering the future of a few millions young children are at stake!
It is only education that will enable our younger generation to get a respectable job and make them capable of questioning the existing systems; political, economic, social or ethical if any of these systems perpetuate subjugation, oppression and exploitation and subsequently denounce those unjust elements and resist and change them. Our society is emaciated for want of these means provided by education. In fact the more we boycott classes the more political turmoil we are inviting in the long run. Education is the only way to make people capable of dialogue without which no human community can survive in peace.
We, therefore, appeal to all to support education and lift boycott and find better ways and means. We call upon all to rise above to put education forward. We call upon both the sides to give room for dialogue to break the deadlock and come up with a consensus benefiting the future of our society.
We want the boycott to be lifted and opt for another way of protest against the state sponsored terrorism. Therefore, we are writing to you to help us out in voicing/appealing to the said student organizations to opt for another way of protest and let the students study. Let us all work together, discuss this issue in detail and come up with a joint appeal to the organizations supporting the boycott. We hope our proposal would be agreeable to you all.
Thanking you,
Regards,
1. Romeo Ningombam, Bangalore
2. Chaoba Phuritshabam, Delhi
3. Joysana Chingakham, Kolkata
4. Shreema Ningombam, Imphal
5. Tiken Laishram, Bangalore
6. Khuman Ngakpa Oinam, Mumbai
7. Ringo Pebam, Bangalore
8. Sam Khumanthem, Hyderabad
9. Vimol Kshetrimayum, Pune
10. Sumitra Thoidingjam, Delhi
11. Babina Wahengbam, Delhi
12. Duran Thiyam, Mumbai
13. Supriya Shijagurumayum, Delhi
14. John Zamkhomang Munluo, Gurgoan
15. Akee Sorokhaibam, Mumbai
16. Ronid Chingangbam, Delhi
17. Raju Athokpam, Delhi
18. Dwipen Khwairakpam, Mumbai
19. Krishnakanta Laiphangbam, Bangalore
Education in its broadest sense is any act or experience that has a formative effect on the mind, character or physical ability of an individual. In its technical sense education is the process by which society deliberately transmits its accumulated knowledge, skills and values from one generation to another.
A lot has happened in the last many years in Manipur that has degraded our society, however, each one of us live in some hope that all these will come to pass. The older generations fought, suffered and lived through it. But do we want our younger generation go through it all over again? Perhaps not!
In an ideal world, what has happened in Manipur could be termed as equivalent to a holocaust. The sheer disrespect for human lives is almost shocking but then, it was what we have created and we must constantly look for avenues for change and make survival worthwhile even in the worst of time.
In the past few months, many schools in the state have been shut by various organizations in the state as a protest against fake encounters. We empathize with them in their quest to bring stability to the state and they will find every single Manipuri supporting them in their quest to bring peace. However, in the same breathe, we would like to point out that, perhaps, banning the young children from going to school to achieve peace and stability is not at all conducive, considering the future of a few millions young children are at stake!
It is only education that will enable our younger generation to get a respectable job and make them capable of questioning the existing systems; political, economic, social or ethical if any of these systems perpetuate subjugation, oppression and exploitation and subsequently denounce those unjust elements and resist and change them. Our society is emaciated for want of these means provided by education. In fact the more we boycott classes the more political turmoil we are inviting in the long run. Education is the only way to make people capable of dialogue without which no human community can survive in peace.
We, therefore, appeal to all to support education and lift boycott and find better ways and means. We call upon all to rise above to put education forward. We call upon both the sides to give room for dialogue to break the deadlock and come up with a consensus benefiting the future of our society.
We want the boycott to be lifted and opt for another way of protest against the state sponsored terrorism. Therefore, we are writing to you to help us out in voicing/appealing to the said student organizations to opt for another way of protest and let the students study. Let us all work together, discuss this issue in detail and come up with a joint appeal to the organizations supporting the boycott. We hope our proposal would be agreeable to you all.
Thanking you,
Regards,
1. Romeo Ningombam, Bangalore
2. Chaoba Phuritshabam, Delhi
3. Joysana Chingakham, Kolkata
4. Shreema Ningombam, Imphal
5. Tiken Laishram, Bangalore
6. Khuman Ngakpa Oinam, Mumbai
7. Ringo Pebam, Bangalore
8. Sam Khumanthem, Hyderabad
9. Vimol Kshetrimayum, Pune
10. Sumitra Thoidingjam, Delhi
11. Babina Wahengbam, Delhi
12. Duran Thiyam, Mumbai
13. Supriya Shijagurumayum, Delhi
14. John Zamkhomang Munluo, Gurgoan
15. Akee Sorokhaibam, Mumbai
16. Ronid Chingangbam, Delhi
17. Raju Athokpam, Delhi
18. Dwipen Khwairakpam, Mumbai
19. Krishnakanta Laiphangbam, Bangalore
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
The food for fasting!!
Today is Karva Chouth-prayers seeking the welfare, prosperity, well-being, and longevity of their husbands. I doubt what makes a sense of fasting for a long live of the husband in such a busy life when you hardly have time to breath. What about initiating another idea of husband fasting for his wife and waiting for the moon to shine in the sky when the night comes.
I have no offence against any religion. I'm also a hindu by certificate though I don't follow any religion. I believe in existence of a unseen Davine which hold us and still pull us to move ahead in live. But I don't obey any rituals which says God will grant your wish if you pray like this. I always thought God or the unseen divine would be very irritated seeing the selfishness of the human. Why they go to Mandir, Church, Mosque...to beg for their wish to be fulfilled or do you need to waste your precious life by just spending time in a temple, by just standing and looking after the unbreath idols. What about making a change and serving the poor and giving them a place to sleep to the place where such big temples, churches or mosques are built up just for the sake of the religion. I doubt none of the God would come and say build up my place to stay. When you believe in something which is not exist then why do do build up a big house to live for the God/Goddess.
The duration of navrati make me annoyed seeing the crowd in the office canteen. There was separate food for those people who are fasting. My question may be agitated to my colleagues when I asked them the meaning of the " food for fasting". He used to eat 10 to 20 puris of fasting food. Said he is not going to eat the whole night. Wow, I can only said sometime human also act as a camel??? You store eveything in the day time and digest it later. If I'm not wrong, they are just contradicting what they are doing. At the first place why do you need to show to the rest of the world that you are obeying the God. Isn't it so called "show off factor",created by themselves.
It seems too Hypocratic when you give the reason to believe to God just for the sake of religion and showing off to the people. I'm not an atheist too. I believe in God which I feel is inside me and guiding me to do good and not to harm the rest of human living around me.
That's my prayer for everyday! That's my purpose of believing to the God.
I have no offence against any religion. I'm also a hindu by certificate though I don't follow any religion. I believe in existence of a unseen Davine which hold us and still pull us to move ahead in live. But I don't obey any rituals which says God will grant your wish if you pray like this. I always thought God or the unseen divine would be very irritated seeing the selfishness of the human. Why they go to Mandir, Church, Mosque...to beg for their wish to be fulfilled or do you need to waste your precious life by just spending time in a temple, by just standing and looking after the unbreath idols. What about making a change and serving the poor and giving them a place to sleep to the place where such big temples, churches or mosques are built up just for the sake of the religion. I doubt none of the God would come and say build up my place to stay. When you believe in something which is not exist then why do do build up a big house to live for the God/Goddess.
The duration of navrati make me annoyed seeing the crowd in the office canteen. There was separate food for those people who are fasting. My question may be agitated to my colleagues when I asked them the meaning of the " food for fasting". He used to eat 10 to 20 puris of fasting food. Said he is not going to eat the whole night. Wow, I can only said sometime human also act as a camel??? You store eveything in the day time and digest it later. If I'm not wrong, they are just contradicting what they are doing. At the first place why do you need to show to the rest of the world that you are obeying the God. Isn't it so called "show off factor",created by themselves.
It seems too Hypocratic when you give the reason to believe to God just for the sake of religion and showing off to the people. I'm not an atheist too. I believe in God which I feel is inside me and guiding me to do good and not to harm the rest of human living around me.
That's my prayer for everyday! That's my purpose of believing to the God.
Monday, October 5, 2009
To say "no" is painful but better than a "yes" that brings regret!!
The most difficult task in my life is saying "no" to someone/something. That just hurt myself and I just asked myself why I can't finish everything with a single "no".
Everytime I remind myself if something is not feasible to me, I should say " no" but I couldn't do it till not. I'm regretted again. I still commit the same mistake.
I'm just confused how should I learn to say "no instead of hurting myself later on.
Everytime I remind myself if something is not feasible to me, I should say " no" but I couldn't do it till not. I'm regretted again. I still commit the same mistake.
I'm just confused how should I learn to say "no instead of hurting myself later on.
Friday, October 2, 2009
Washak tugi Warep!!
Sakkhiba washak tudani
Eina warouriba
Eina hangoiriba
Sakkhiba washak nangoda
Nangi narup thupna liege haina
Washak tugi warep tuni
tukatchahanlibase
Eshana eshabu enthoklibase
Kanna eibu washakhalibano
Kannana eibu ashuk tonna hinghanlibano
Washak tudani eina souribase
Washak tugi warep tuni
Eina pendribase
Koubibagira nangna eise nangi nupi haina
Sokpibagira eigi hakchangse
Kananasu pamlaktanaba
Nangi meenam lalouda thukhrabada
Pubirure Eibu supnagi ahing amakhakta
kokte dagti punshi chupagi
Washaktugi wareptuni
Eina souningliba
Washaktugi hourakphamduni
Eina muthatke singnaribase
Yangoi lamjao sorok ta
Eibu khujeng paiduna
Eibu Nungshi haikhibadusu
Nangini haiba kallaknabakhira?
Natraga meeyam mamangda
Nangi touba ngamba utnabakhakla?
Hukkhiba kundo parengdusu
Punshigi leipuni haiduna
Supnatangi eibu punshinabra
Eigi ningtamna hingba punshibu kallaktuna?
Washaktugi warep tuni
Eina kanthi thokna souriba
Artha thoktraba
Mammal youhankhidraba
Nangonda sakhiba washak tunani
Eibu ashuk kanna punshinliba
Thabum mapal naopuduna
Nangi e-matum dagi semkhiba
Nangita oiragababa echa ashigira
Eina nangonda sakhiba washakto
natraga chahi litshang sitna
punshi tangkhai hing
punshi tangkhai shi
nakha ponna hingbagira
sakhiba eigi washakto
washaktugi warep tunani
eibu houjik su kaphanliba
eshana eshabu tukatchahanliba
Nangna eibu thadoklamlabada
Nangi sanagi keisum sangdagi
karigi amuksu thamlamli
amuba chandolshe
karigi aduk puchel pikliba
thadoklamdriba karigo
ening tamna paijanaba
hanglaba atiya thaksida
masigira eina shakhiba washak to
washak tugi warep tunani
eibu ashuk lapna enthokpiriba eingondagi!!
Eina warouriba
Eina hangoiriba
Sakkhiba washak nangoda
Nangi narup thupna liege haina
Washak tugi warep tuni
tukatchahanlibase
Eshana eshabu enthoklibase
Kanna eibu washakhalibano
Kannana eibu ashuk tonna hinghanlibano
Washak tudani eina souribase
Washak tugi warep tuni
Eina pendribase
Koubibagira nangna eise nangi nupi haina
Sokpibagira eigi hakchangse
Kananasu pamlaktanaba
Nangi meenam lalouda thukhrabada
Pubirure Eibu supnagi ahing amakhakta
kokte dagti punshi chupagi
Washaktugi wareptuni
Eina souningliba
Washaktugi hourakphamduni
Eina muthatke singnaribase
Yangoi lamjao sorok ta
Eibu khujeng paiduna
Eibu Nungshi haikhibadusu
Nangini haiba kallaknabakhira?
Natraga meeyam mamangda
Nangi touba ngamba utnabakhakla?
Hukkhiba kundo parengdusu
Punshigi leipuni haiduna
Supnatangi eibu punshinabra
Eigi ningtamna hingba punshibu kallaktuna?
Washaktugi warep tuni
Eina kanthi thokna souriba
Artha thoktraba
Mammal youhankhidraba
Nangonda sakhiba washak tunani
Eibu ashuk kanna punshinliba
Thabum mapal naopuduna
Nangi e-matum dagi semkhiba
Nangita oiragababa echa ashigira
Eina nangonda sakhiba washakto
natraga chahi litshang sitna
punshi tangkhai hing
punshi tangkhai shi
nakha ponna hingbagira
sakhiba eigi washakto
washaktugi warep tunani
eibu houjik su kaphanliba
eshana eshabu tukatchahanliba
Nangna eibu thadoklamlabada
Nangi sanagi keisum sangdagi
karigi amuksu thamlamli
amuba chandolshe
karigi aduk puchel pikliba
thadoklamdriba karigo
ening tamna paijanaba
hanglaba atiya thaksida
masigira eina shakhiba washak to
washak tugi warep tunani
eibu ashuk lapna enthokpiriba eingondagi!!
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Denouce the undemocratic Movement!!
Dear All,
As we all know that Schools and colleges in back home are closed for almost one month by the ongoing boycott by the student Union AMSU. Board/Council exams are only 4-5 months from now. What are these students going to do in the examination hall. The most dramatic thing about the mockery system is Manipur is that last year both AMSU and DESAM has done their duty of checking the unfair means in the exam.
How can a student pass an exam when they are ban and disturb from their study??
Are we puppets/parrot so that we can just be fit and speaks which is only taught. The most effected group in our society are the students. Instead of supporting the education system, students are used as tool of politics. That's most barbaric and unacceptable things happening in back home.
The question here is what we are going to achieve by kicking ourselves? Why are we always in the motive of harming ourselves? Our parents earn petty money out of the hard work and send us to school and colleges so that someday we should be able to stand on our own feet and so something good for the family and the society.
What would be the future of a state where only uneducated people would be living? School and colleges are not only for getting a degree, it's where we learn what is moral, immoral which is basic needs of the life. What are we going to produce in another 10 years down the line by boycotting the education in Manipur. If we want a peaceful society then we need a well educated people who can understand the importance of education in building up a society.
Whatever we are facing today in back home is because of all the uneducated politicians and unauthorized bodies running the system and playing their power game.
Can we expect that we will get the demand by banning education. I don't think none of the politicians and those who are involved in such dirty politics would be sending their kids in the schools in home.
It is a high time, we collective denounce such undemocratic act for whatever the reason it is. We all support the protest against the inhuman treatment of the present govt. to the people but if the protest is also against the civil society then what makes them different from the present ruling govt.
By such protest we can just build up another immoral and barbaric society much worse than now where people gives no value to the life.
A mail from a friend which expresses deep sadness and frustration over such act.
A Chinese proverb says :- "If you want to think one year ahead, plant rice If you want to think 10 years ahead, plant trees. But if you want to think 100 years ahead, give education to people"
Ironically the supposedly descendants of Chinese civilization, are trying hard to deprived their children of education, education in any form - school or non-schools.
All schools are closed since last 3 weeks. No one knows when they will be open again - after 1 month, 4 months or may be after 2 years. Whoever comes on the way are treated as traitors. Most of us, if not all, might be thinking who cares about school, even during our days we made up everything from tuition. FYI information even tuition classes are not allowed.
http://www.e-pao.net/GP.asp?src=21..290909.sep09
It observed that the students may not only lose the academic year of 2009.The students could also be deprived of their studies till 2010 0r 2011 while attributing the cause to Ibobi.
This is going too much. Their board exam are hardly 4-5 months away. Exams cannot be stopped regardless of whether classes happen or not. How the hell are they going to write those exam? Worse hit will be those in class 12 appearing the national level exams some preparing for IIT, AIEEE, Medical exams, or Admission to various colleges.
Imagine yourself in the place of the students in class 10 and 12. All of us seems to be happy and proud with whatever we are because we earn in dollars, pounds, some 7 digit annual salary, or we are Doctorate, masters, Engineers. Have you ever think would we have been the same if we didn't have any class/tuition from Sept. previous year till your exam in March-April? Will you have have got admission in college in Delhi or your engineering college? Some people, earning the status of most learned folks, are busy analysis the situation trying to use their brilliant brain to solve the chicken and hen problem hoping that some day solution will come but at the same time ignoring what is happening around. Do they know that they may not have that much brain if they were born 10-20 years later?
We grew up hearing that Manipuri's are the most advanced people in NE states. Comparing to other NE states we have the highest number of research scholars and doctorates, highest number of engineers, have always have best results in almost all competitive exams. We all were proud of this fact. Our children will grow up hearing the same but in past tense - "We were ... , we used to be .... ".
Every year we spend more than Rs.1 lakh from our hard earn money trying to promote IT in Manipur. Every month we contributed from our pocket money in order to support a few poor students' education. We think that we are doing for a good cause. F****k the cause; it doesn't have any meaning when there is total annihilation of education. Close this MYF, LM and whatever thing; stop working for your bloody cause. Everything has no meaning.
We tried so hard to give some hope to few of students. Now they are taking away hope from everyone. How can they do this?
Why should I care? I and my siblings are done with my education, I have enough money to support education for my kids in good schools outside Manipur. I don't even know why the hell am writing this.
-Romeo
As we all know that Schools and colleges in back home are closed for almost one month by the ongoing boycott by the student Union AMSU. Board/Council exams are only 4-5 months from now. What are these students going to do in the examination hall. The most dramatic thing about the mockery system is Manipur is that last year both AMSU and DESAM has done their duty of checking the unfair means in the exam.
How can a student pass an exam when they are ban and disturb from their study??
Are we puppets/parrot so that we can just be fit and speaks which is only taught. The most effected group in our society are the students. Instead of supporting the education system, students are used as tool of politics. That's most barbaric and unacceptable things happening in back home.
The question here is what we are going to achieve by kicking ourselves? Why are we always in the motive of harming ourselves? Our parents earn petty money out of the hard work and send us to school and colleges so that someday we should be able to stand on our own feet and so something good for the family and the society.
What would be the future of a state where only uneducated people would be living? School and colleges are not only for getting a degree, it's where we learn what is moral, immoral which is basic needs of the life. What are we going to produce in another 10 years down the line by boycotting the education in Manipur. If we want a peaceful society then we need a well educated people who can understand the importance of education in building up a society.
Whatever we are facing today in back home is because of all the uneducated politicians and unauthorized bodies running the system and playing their power game.
Can we expect that we will get the demand by banning education. I don't think none of the politicians and those who are involved in such dirty politics would be sending their kids in the schools in home.
It is a high time, we collective denounce such undemocratic act for whatever the reason it is. We all support the protest against the inhuman treatment of the present govt. to the people but if the protest is also against the civil society then what makes them different from the present ruling govt.
By such protest we can just build up another immoral and barbaric society much worse than now where people gives no value to the life.
A mail from a friend which expresses deep sadness and frustration over such act.
A Chinese proverb says :- "If you want to think one year ahead, plant rice If you want to think 10 years ahead, plant trees. But if you want to think 100 years ahead, give education to people"
Ironically the supposedly descendants of Chinese civilization, are trying hard to deprived their children of education, education in any form - school or non-schools.
All schools are closed since last 3 weeks. No one knows when they will be open again - after 1 month, 4 months or may be after 2 years. Whoever comes on the way are treated as traitors. Most of us, if not all, might be thinking who cares about school, even during our days we made up everything from tuition. FYI information even tuition classes are not allowed.
http://www.e-pao.net/GP.asp?src=21..290909.sep09
It observed that the students may not only lose the academic year of 2009.The students could also be deprived of their studies till 2010 0r 2011 while attributing the cause to Ibobi.
This is going too much. Their board exam are hardly 4-5 months away. Exams cannot be stopped regardless of whether classes happen or not. How the hell are they going to write those exam? Worse hit will be those in class 12 appearing the national level exams some preparing for IIT, AIEEE, Medical exams, or Admission to various colleges.
Imagine yourself in the place of the students in class 10 and 12. All of us seems to be happy and proud with whatever we are because we earn in dollars, pounds, some 7 digit annual salary, or we are Doctorate, masters, Engineers. Have you ever think would we have been the same if we didn't have any class/tuition from Sept. previous year till your exam in March-April? Will you have have got admission in college in Delhi or your engineering college? Some people, earning the status of most learned folks, are busy analysis the situation trying to use their brilliant brain to solve the chicken and hen problem hoping that some day solution will come but at the same time ignoring what is happening around. Do they know that they may not have that much brain if they were born 10-20 years later?
We grew up hearing that Manipuri's are the most advanced people in NE states. Comparing to other NE states we have the highest number of research scholars and doctorates, highest number of engineers, have always have best results in almost all competitive exams. We all were proud of this fact. Our children will grow up hearing the same but in past tense - "We were ... , we used to be .... ".
Every year we spend more than Rs.1 lakh from our hard earn money trying to promote IT in Manipur. Every month we contributed from our pocket money in order to support a few poor students' education. We think that we are doing for a good cause. F****k the cause; it doesn't have any meaning when there is total annihilation of education. Close this MYF, LM and whatever thing; stop working for your bloody cause. Everything has no meaning.
We tried so hard to give some hope to few of students. Now they are taking away hope from everyone. How can they do this?
Why should I care? I and my siblings are done with my education, I have enough money to support education for my kids in good schools outside Manipur. I don't even know why the hell am writing this.
-Romeo
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Oiningi eisu urit napangbido!!
Hada urit napangbi,
Namana kouye tadabi,
Napana kouyi khumdabi,
Hada urit napangbi,
Eina koubase amukta khumlamu!
Painingle eisu nangumna,
Kanabusu tadana,
Kanabusu thaoidana,
Tabang meeoiba eikhoise,
Meephata nagkta oiramle,
Meenungsu haido youdare,
Meehatpung olle malem se,
Nangbu taribara,
Hada urik taribara,
Eisu nangum painingle,
Meenungsi khanda taibangda,
Kanana haibabu tasige,
Kanagi yathang ngaksige,
Khangbada warre,
Yengba ngamdare,
Awabasingse,
Eisu natung ellake,
Tamthiba saphu phangdringei,
Kalakpana eibu khudum chandringei,
Eisu ngangumna painingle,
Apam apam chaduna,
Sajik chilhou thidana,
Sangla Phouna marakta,
Paininglakle nangumna,
Malang sahum enduna,
Punshi pandom lomdri pho,
Eisu napangbi oiningle nangumna,
Kanabusu tadana,
Kanabusu thaoidana,
Eining tamna hingninglle.
Pakla malang atiyase,
Eigita oiningle,
Ening tamna painaba,
Yengshinbinaba kanna youdana,
Ubinaba kanna leitana,
Esha ereng phandoktuna,
Thekna khoina painingle,
Eishu natung ellake,
Eishu nangumna oiningle,
Amuktadi ngaikhoba,
Hada urit napangbi,
Eina kouribase khumlamu,
Eisu natung ellake!!
Namana kouye tadabi,
Napana kouyi khumdabi,
Hada urit napangbi,
Eina koubase amukta khumlamu!
Painingle eisu nangumna,
Kanabusu tadana,
Kanabusu thaoidana,
Tabang meeoiba eikhoise,
Meephata nagkta oiramle,
Meenungsu haido youdare,
Meehatpung olle malem se,
Nangbu taribara,
Hada urik taribara,
Eisu nangum painingle,
Meenungsi khanda taibangda,
Kanana haibabu tasige,
Kanagi yathang ngaksige,
Khangbada warre,
Yengba ngamdare,
Awabasingse,
Eisu natung ellake,
Tamthiba saphu phangdringei,
Kalakpana eibu khudum chandringei,
Eisu ngangumna painingle,
Apam apam chaduna,
Sajik chilhou thidana,
Sangla Phouna marakta,
Paininglakle nangumna,
Malang sahum enduna,
Punshi pandom lomdri pho,
Eisu napangbi oiningle nangumna,
Kanabusu tadana,
Kanabusu thaoidana,
Eining tamna hingninglle.
Pakla malang atiyase,
Eigita oiningle,
Ening tamna painaba,
Yengshinbinaba kanna youdana,
Ubinaba kanna leitana,
Esha ereng phandoktuna,
Thekna khoina painingle,
Eishu natung ellake,
Eishu nangumna oiningle,
Amuktadi ngaikhoba,
Hada urit napangbi,
Eina kouribase khumlamu,
Eisu natung ellake!!
Friday, September 18, 2009
Lighter side of the life!!
A gesture, a single word from a person makes your life so valuable and beautiful.
That's the lighter side of the life which takes you ahead and that's how you moved on in life. I also had a beautiful share of memory with the one who help and guide me to reach the sky and play among the stars. How I'm here sitting and writing this piece of story of my life, its sometime begun from him only...It was just pop up in my mind after a long time. After almost 9 years back from now;
Remembering someone who is very important in my life. He a teacher, a friend, a motivator, a supporter and also my first love. Never thought a stranger becoming so important and even changing my life. Our first introduction starts with the first chapter of Inorganic chemistry. Among the metals and non-metals of the periodic table, we seem to look each with some other connection. Never spoken a word to each other but I was always sure that he would be there to support me. Yeah, it happened just the way I dream of.
Contrary to what I'm now, I'm quite shy and soft spoken. I hardly interacted with anybody in the class except the few girls sitting next to me. Boys are no-no for me. I thought they are enough reason to put you in a big mess in my life. I always stayed away from them. I hardly know half of my classmates till my 12th class. Some says I'm arrogant, some says I'm quite shy. But I'm not belonged to any of these. I just wanted to be with myself. Always busy with my study and my own dreams. I remember the first poem I wrote for him and I regretted throwing it just after I left the school. People may feel weird on hearing how I have fallen for him, a teacher in the school. But we never try to break the beautiful student-teacher relationship. We never talk about anything beyond our books. It’s true that I never missed to open my Chemistry book how busy I’m. I have always targeted that I should get the highest mark in his class. I also did what I wanted.
But our dream just remain as a dream. I got shocked and almost in tears when he said to his colleague that I’m his favorite student and I’m the most dedicated one in the class. My classmate talks lots of bullshit about me and Sir but there was nothing as they developed their own story. It was true that he always supported me and worried for me all the time as I’m the only girl coming from a far distance among the group of boys.
Sometime he would wait for me in the bus stand till I board my bus and even lend his umbrella if I don’t carry a one on the rainy day. Seeing him peeping from the bus window just to make sure that I have safely board the bus or my friends with me, makes me feel so secure.
But our dream remain as a dream only. I had my first heartbreak when I heard about a girl approaching him for marriage proposal just before my council exam. For some days, I even run from him and did not talk to him. After that I have promised to myself that I will never meet him and talk to him. I still feel very funny of my attitude towards him. But I can’t ignore for his emotions for me also. My friend told me why I didn’t inform him before I leave for Delhi? He was coming and asking all my classmates and he even visited to examination center of MBBS exam to search for me. With time I try to change myself. After my first year exam, I stayed at home for around two months. I even visited to meet my teachers but I have decided not to meet him. Two days before I left for Delhi, he came with his friend in my home. I think that was the most embarrassing moment in my life and his friend is also my teacher. He knew everything about us. He only told me to keep in touch with us even though you stay there in Delhi. But I never did that as I do not want to look back and hurt myself. After two years we had another chance of meeting in my friend’s place in Delhi with all my classmates. I know all my classmates are eager to look his expression when we meet, so I acted in a little different way so that he become comfortable and avoid showing his awkward nature in front of all. As I thought, I change my attitude towards him. Now, he is only that teacher who teaches me Chemistry, but not the one who had a soft corner for me. After two years of mingling with people here, I have also started opening my mouth much wider and louder when I speak.
I was happy because people don’t have the chance to see our Hindi film style meeting. Only thing he had told me was about my new avatar of very talkative nature. He only asked me do you like Chemistry? How much you scored in your exam? I said this is only subject I can opt for further study, thats all I know about Chemistry. Yeah, this is the only subject I have ever loved to study. My entire table, walls surrounds with the uneven structures of the compounds and names. My friends simply hate to enter in my room.. It took me to the place where I’m today. I fall in love with the subject, with the periodic table and with the foul smell of the Lab just for nothing.
But with time I moved on and I still cherish the moment we had shared without even speaking anything to each other. Few months back I had to call him for my brother’s tuition as he is one best teacher in Chemistry in Manipur. I don’t know what I felt after I kept the phone but it was a different feeling. I feel proud that he took care of and support me so much. I still remember his face when I caught him talking about me to his friends. I had only one question to my mother, if I marry a teacher of 28 years old, what would be the problem?? I know my mother was furious with me all the time because of this question but I want her to say that it is ok and go ahead! But she never said that. He was 10 years older to me that time and I just wish I was of his same age only at that time.. My mother got more angry when I told her that he had came to meet me before I leave for Delhi...
This time I went home in July to see my grandma. My brother saw me the brochure of the school which is led by him and his friends. It's one of the most famous school in Manipur now. He looks much mature in the picture but he still maintains his charm and honesty, of course his trademark smile in the picture. His picture of receiving best chemistry teacher award given by Education(S) was in the brochure. It makes me so proud that moment and I just convinced myself, he is the one who had supported me all the time. I just smile and said to myself, I’m so lucky; he is the one who had motivated me to be what I’m.
I heard about his daughter from one of my teacher. Said she is very beautiful and witty. I just said to myself, she must be very intelligent just like his father! Like father, Like daughter!
That's the lighter side of the life which takes you ahead and that's how you moved on in life. I also had a beautiful share of memory with the one who help and guide me to reach the sky and play among the stars. How I'm here sitting and writing this piece of story of my life, its sometime begun from him only...It was just pop up in my mind after a long time. After almost 9 years back from now;
Remembering someone who is very important in my life. He a teacher, a friend, a motivator, a supporter and also my first love. Never thought a stranger becoming so important and even changing my life. Our first introduction starts with the first chapter of Inorganic chemistry. Among the metals and non-metals of the periodic table, we seem to look each with some other connection. Never spoken a word to each other but I was always sure that he would be there to support me. Yeah, it happened just the way I dream of.
Contrary to what I'm now, I'm quite shy and soft spoken. I hardly interacted with anybody in the class except the few girls sitting next to me. Boys are no-no for me. I thought they are enough reason to put you in a big mess in my life. I always stayed away from them. I hardly know half of my classmates till my 12th class. Some says I'm arrogant, some says I'm quite shy. But I'm not belonged to any of these. I just wanted to be with myself. Always busy with my study and my own dreams. I remember the first poem I wrote for him and I regretted throwing it just after I left the school. People may feel weird on hearing how I have fallen for him, a teacher in the school. But we never try to break the beautiful student-teacher relationship. We never talk about anything beyond our books. It’s true that I never missed to open my Chemistry book how busy I’m. I have always targeted that I should get the highest mark in his class. I also did what I wanted.
But our dream just remain as a dream. I got shocked and almost in tears when he said to his colleague that I’m his favorite student and I’m the most dedicated one in the class. My classmate talks lots of bullshit about me and Sir but there was nothing as they developed their own story. It was true that he always supported me and worried for me all the time as I’m the only girl coming from a far distance among the group of boys.
Sometime he would wait for me in the bus stand till I board my bus and even lend his umbrella if I don’t carry a one on the rainy day. Seeing him peeping from the bus window just to make sure that I have safely board the bus or my friends with me, makes me feel so secure.
But our dream remain as a dream only. I had my first heartbreak when I heard about a girl approaching him for marriage proposal just before my council exam. For some days, I even run from him and did not talk to him. After that I have promised to myself that I will never meet him and talk to him. I still feel very funny of my attitude towards him. But I can’t ignore for his emotions for me also. My friend told me why I didn’t inform him before I leave for Delhi? He was coming and asking all my classmates and he even visited to examination center of MBBS exam to search for me. With time I try to change myself. After my first year exam, I stayed at home for around two months. I even visited to meet my teachers but I have decided not to meet him. Two days before I left for Delhi, he came with his friend in my home. I think that was the most embarrassing moment in my life and his friend is also my teacher. He knew everything about us. He only told me to keep in touch with us even though you stay there in Delhi. But I never did that as I do not want to look back and hurt myself. After two years we had another chance of meeting in my friend’s place in Delhi with all my classmates. I know all my classmates are eager to look his expression when we meet, so I acted in a little different way so that he become comfortable and avoid showing his awkward nature in front of all. As I thought, I change my attitude towards him. Now, he is only that teacher who teaches me Chemistry, but not the one who had a soft corner for me. After two years of mingling with people here, I have also started opening my mouth much wider and louder when I speak.
I was happy because people don’t have the chance to see our Hindi film style meeting. Only thing he had told me was about my new avatar of very talkative nature. He only asked me do you like Chemistry? How much you scored in your exam? I said this is only subject I can opt for further study, thats all I know about Chemistry. Yeah, this is the only subject I have ever loved to study. My entire table, walls surrounds with the uneven structures of the compounds and names. My friends simply hate to enter in my room.. It took me to the place where I’m today. I fall in love with the subject, with the periodic table and with the foul smell of the Lab just for nothing.
But with time I moved on and I still cherish the moment we had shared without even speaking anything to each other. Few months back I had to call him for my brother’s tuition as he is one best teacher in Chemistry in Manipur. I don’t know what I felt after I kept the phone but it was a different feeling. I feel proud that he took care of and support me so much. I still remember his face when I caught him talking about me to his friends. I had only one question to my mother, if I marry a teacher of 28 years old, what would be the problem?? I know my mother was furious with me all the time because of this question but I want her to say that it is ok and go ahead! But she never said that. He was 10 years older to me that time and I just wish I was of his same age only at that time.. My mother got more angry when I told her that he had came to meet me before I leave for Delhi...
This time I went home in July to see my grandma. My brother saw me the brochure of the school which is led by him and his friends. It's one of the most famous school in Manipur now. He looks much mature in the picture but he still maintains his charm and honesty, of course his trademark smile in the picture. His picture of receiving best chemistry teacher award given by Education(S) was in the brochure. It makes me so proud that moment and I just convinced myself, he is the one who had supported me all the time. I just smile and said to myself, I’m so lucky; he is the one who had motivated me to be what I’m.
I heard about his daughter from one of my teacher. Said she is very beautiful and witty. I just said to myself, she must be very intelligent just like his father! Like father, Like daughter!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Ningtamba!!
Hanglaba ka amada
Amamba marak ta thiri eisu
Ningtamba gi artha
Khuta nongmei paiduna
Leingak pasu khit ngamde,
Lanmi tengol puduna lan-ngakpasu toungamde,
Thangi Jagoi Saduna
Thangal general matou tam,
Bomb gi meina kakpasu heihoude
Thiri amamba maraksida
Ningtambagi artha!
Khalli Bir Tikredrajit matou tam,
Shamu khongda yet,
Thouna phaba ngamladi
Amuksu kirak ee
Piklaba eigi thawaisigi
Khallak ee bhrama na pokpa ngamdaba mapok se
Karam na laina manghangani
Epu Paona leiramlaba
Eisu thouna pharamgdra
Khalli ethanta mamlaba ka ashida
Thibadi lepte
Ningtambagi artha!
Thaplaba chingya tamya da
Enga gi nongju-gum
Leptana churiba
Nomei gi makhol na
Eigi wakhal bu hek hek thugairi
Khalak yee kanagi ningtambano tandoise?
Ching-gi Siroi lily gira?
Atiya da thaja mabu ngairiba Nongein mahakira?
Makhoigi ningtambana kana munkhraba?
Ching da khonglamba Tamnasu
Masaigol thadok tuna chenkhare
Menglaba magi khonjel bu taraga
Kallak meehou chouba mee oibana
Landarakadra kibana,
Siroi chingi lily su sattare
Khanguthakta thadatpigadra kibana,
Soidana hanglamgani lonthoktrabasu
Eikhoigi ningtambana kadaida?
Phamli ethanata houjik su
Mamlaba eigi kasida
Ningtambi artha thiduna!!
Kanasu laklaga taklade
Kanasu laklaga hanglade
Eigi ningtambagi artha?
Eikhoigi Ningtambagi lalhouda
Loktak ki luraba laijasu
Phumdi-houdi marak ta
Makhum louduna lotkhare
Loktaki ethat mapie da
Thekna jagoi sarambi
Nganu thangong kayasu
Poirei meitei leibak- tagi
Mit-yeng tamna leikhre
Korouhanba masu warouramalle
Sanakhride amuk hana
Loktaki leijanungda,
Khallak ee maoon maoon
Ningtamba tallibase kanagino?
Hangli ningtambagi artha?
Chingi siroi lily gira?
Chingyagi tamna nangi ra?
Ekai phiruk khumkhrabi Loktak ki leija nangisura?
Ningtambase kanagino?
Amuksu khallak li wakhalsi da
Amuktang pokpa mapoksida
Bhramana kalakchaba mee-oi poksida
Nongein na thaja meikei yengbagumna
Ningtambagi artha thiduna leirasira eisu?
Amamba marak ta thiri eisu
Ningtamba gi artha
Khuta nongmei paiduna
Leingak pasu khit ngamde,
Lanmi tengol puduna lan-ngakpasu toungamde,
Thangi Jagoi Saduna
Thangal general matou tam,
Bomb gi meina kakpasu heihoude
Thiri amamba maraksida
Ningtambagi artha!
Khalli Bir Tikredrajit matou tam,
Shamu khongda yet,
Thouna phaba ngamladi
Amuksu kirak ee
Piklaba eigi thawaisigi
Khallak ee bhrama na pokpa ngamdaba mapok se
Karam na laina manghangani
Epu Paona leiramlaba
Eisu thouna pharamgdra
Khalli ethanta mamlaba ka ashida
Thibadi lepte
Ningtambagi artha!
Thaplaba chingya tamya da
Enga gi nongju-gum
Leptana churiba
Nomei gi makhol na
Eigi wakhal bu hek hek thugairi
Khalak yee kanagi ningtambano tandoise?
Ching-gi Siroi lily gira?
Atiya da thaja mabu ngairiba Nongein mahakira?
Makhoigi ningtambana kana munkhraba?
Ching da khonglamba Tamnasu
Masaigol thadok tuna chenkhare
Menglaba magi khonjel bu taraga
Kallak meehou chouba mee oibana
Landarakadra kibana,
Siroi chingi lily su sattare
Khanguthakta thadatpigadra kibana,
Soidana hanglamgani lonthoktrabasu
Eikhoigi ningtambana kadaida?
Phamli ethanata houjik su
Mamlaba eigi kasida
Ningtambi artha thiduna!!
Kanasu laklaga taklade
Kanasu laklaga hanglade
Eigi ningtambagi artha?
Eikhoigi Ningtambagi lalhouda
Loktak ki luraba laijasu
Phumdi-houdi marak ta
Makhum louduna lotkhare
Loktaki ethat mapie da
Thekna jagoi sarambi
Nganu thangong kayasu
Poirei meitei leibak- tagi
Mit-yeng tamna leikhre
Korouhanba masu warouramalle
Sanakhride amuk hana
Loktaki leijanungda,
Khallak ee maoon maoon
Ningtamba tallibase kanagino?
Hangli ningtambagi artha?
Chingi siroi lily gira?
Chingyagi tamna nangi ra?
Ekai phiruk khumkhrabi Loktak ki leija nangisura?
Ningtambase kanagino?
Amuksu khallak li wakhalsi da
Amuktang pokpa mapoksida
Bhramana kalakchaba mee-oi poksida
Nongein na thaja meikei yengbagumna
Ningtambagi artha thiduna leirasira eisu?
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Random calls!
Annoy me again
With your arguments,
Annoy me again,
With your cry,
Annoy me again,
With your echoing voice,
Annoy me again
With your random calls!
Days may be bright,
Night may be dark,
I really do not bother,
As I only wait for you,
and your random calls!
It’s our petty fight,
I miss the most,
It’s your hatred emotions,
I love the most,
It’s the droplets of tears
I cherish the most,
It’s your perplexing words,
Still waking me up in the night!
I miss you like anything now!
Listen to me
for a moment,
Bear with me
for another moment to come,
as I ain’t sure
What life would bring
to me tomorrow
Heaven or hell!!
Listen to me
for the last time
As you are leaving me behind,
Listen to the cry of my heart,
It still murmurs to you,
I forgot to move on!
It still says,
I only wait for you
to look back!!
As I wake up from my sleep,
At this late hour,
I heard
Someone’s call
From the far ahead,
I thought
You had called me,
I thought
You had come,
To annoy me again
And to play with my tears!
I have only few words to say now.
I miss your random calls!!
With your arguments,
Annoy me again,
With your cry,
Annoy me again,
With your echoing voice,
Annoy me again
With your random calls!
Days may be bright,
Night may be dark,
I really do not bother,
As I only wait for you,
and your random calls!
It’s our petty fight,
I miss the most,
It’s your hatred emotions,
I love the most,
It’s the droplets of tears
I cherish the most,
It’s your perplexing words,
Still waking me up in the night!
I miss you like anything now!
Listen to me
for a moment,
Bear with me
for another moment to come,
as I ain’t sure
What life would bring
to me tomorrow
Heaven or hell!!
Listen to me
for the last time
As you are leaving me behind,
Listen to the cry of my heart,
It still murmurs to you,
I forgot to move on!
It still says,
I only wait for you
to look back!!
As I wake up from my sleep,
At this late hour,
I heard
Someone’s call
From the far ahead,
I thought
You had called me,
I thought
You had come,
To annoy me again
And to play with my tears!
I have only few words to say now.
I miss your random calls!!
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